Wednesday, April 22, 2009

story of my life.

today sucked. just like most days. i'm ready to be in the arms of my father again.
there's only two more weeks of school left than i'm almost officially a junior. since school is almost out my classes are getting freakin hard all last minute. it makes me want to shoot myself.
me and my amazing roommates just moved into a beautiful new house, and i absolutely love it, now im just ready to get my puppy back so she can be home with her mommy:)
i recently ran into my x boyfriend at very random places, and of course i fell for him once again. we dated in highschool and we were both stupid and immature, and for me to stay out of trouble i always blamed everything on him so my mom completely hates him. i don't like doing things my mom doesn't like, especially since she is all i have in the parent world. but we were forced to break up in highschool so its like my feelings for him never ended, i just want her to let me make my own mistakes and when and if we break up i'll know that it was because we didn't like each other, not because we were forced too.
i mean we're in college now, we are both very much more mature than we were 2 years ago, and he is not as wild as he was in highschool, and neither am I. my mom just won't even give me the chance, and i don't want to bring it up, because she is stressed out about everything else right now and doesn't have time to worry about me and my pity problems.
anyways besides all of that silly bs my life is amazing. i have the best friends a girl could ask for and an adorable family, i love God with all of my heart and i know that someday i'll be with him and my earth daddy once again.
until then,
ashley kaitlin:)

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